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birthday again.

  I scrambled to write the excerpt I'm going to share down below one night in a fit of anxiety + general dread one night back in June. I get like this every June. I do this around New Year's, too.    I don't like the conception of time. I suppose it bothers me. It apparently worsens as I creep up the ladder of age. I do what I can to shift my thoughts onto anything lighter than the existential, but nonetheless: it remains.   I think I appreciate it about myself, if I'm honest. That is, if you take, "existential dread" + just shave off the "dread" portion. Annoyingly, being so chronically empirical about life can give one quite a bit of depth in perspective, I've found.   It makes moments more important. I document a lot of things because I have a fear of being forgotten, hence my love of photography & videography. I create so that I can try with everything in me to somehow let somebody know I was here on this planet, long after I'm gone. ...

24 Years, 0 Months, & 11 Days: A Checkpoint

     Every few months or so, I like to add another installment to the reason why I started this blog; to document the first real decade of adulthood. So, without further ado, here I am eleven days after my twenty-fourth birthday. Roughly six more years are left in documenting this fraction of my life on earth.

  • I'm a mom to an eight-month-old. She finally has her two bottom teeth popping through. She has such a beautiful, funny, smart personality popping through, too. Joey & I love being parents.
  • Therapy has allowed me to dig deeper into myself. I no longer feel like I need to know the "why" of things that happen or have happened to me. Now, I am confident enough to know that I am only in control of how I react to these things. I feel proud of myself & the strides that I'm taking in bettering my mental health. I'm not healed, but I'm healing.
  • I'm on week three of my twelve-week 5K race training plan. I am proud of myself for sticking to it, so far. I've missed running so much; I had to stop it while I was pregnant because it was too uncomfortable. It's been an amazing stress reliever for me. I take my dog, Popeye, running with me. He's a good running partner.
  • I've managed to "crack-the-code" so to speak on keeping my house relatively clean. I do a load of dishes in the dishwasher every night before bed, put the dishes away in the morning, make the bed right after I wake up, clean as I go, & vacuum every other day, (at least). It's been working.
  • I've been devoting a lot more of my free time to freelance writing work & my blog. I feel happier with my work life.
  • Sunni is learning to say the word, "Mama". We're not sure if she knows what it means, yet, but she's starting to say it, and it's such an incredible feeling; I truly don't think there's anything more amazing than watching your little human learn new things.
  • I always have to have gum, now. I've always liked it, but lately, I love it. So, it's virtually always on my person. Specifically, the Trident™ Tropical Twist flavor. Ugh.. so good.
  • Joey & I are on season five of Orange is The New Black on Netflix. We can't get enough. I can't believe a certain character died, though.. (don't want to insert any spoilers).
  • I started a book club a little over three weeks ago. We meet every Thursday at 7pm with a glass of wine. It's been going wonderfully. I love it so much. I'm naturally a very secluded person, so it's been nice to have a weekly check-in with these friends. It gives me something to look forward to every week.
  • I've noticed a shift in myself caring less & less about whatever narrative people have of me. At the end of the day, I know myself & that's all that matters to me. (This is groundbreaking for me)
  • I've definitely been tapping more into my creative side lately, and I've been enjoying myself. I used to make videos & take photos a lot while growing up, so this has been a nice return to my true self. ☺︎

kati




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