I've Been Freaking Out

  For the past week, I've been extremely stressed. I feel like I've managed to keep it all together for the past few months of wedding planning, but recently, it's been hard to keep my composure at certain points.
  The planning just feels never-ending, honestly. People are always like, "Don't freak out!" or, "Don't be stressed!", and I know that they're coming from a good place, but it's hard not to feel overwhelmed when no matter how much you seem to check-off your to-do list, there's always still something left to be done. I think I'm more-so frustrated than I am stressed.
  The difficult thing about Joey and I's personality differences is how laid back he is-- ironically, it is my favorite thing about him and also the bane of my existence in other instances. While I'm freaking out, (for what often seems like over absolutely nothing), Joey is as cool as a cucumber, and that makes me feel insane.
  I love Joey and I cannot believe that our wedding is in seventeen days, but wow, I simply can't wait for this self-inflicted chaos to be over. I'm sure that the feeling of relief after we finally say "I do" will be incredible. This stress has caused me to have recurring nightmares, suffer from a lack of sleep, and has been the culprit of many petty arguments between Joey and I in recent times. Oh! I forgot to mention: I also have some lovely stress acne, centered in the middle of my massive forehead, lol. Here's to hoping that those zits clear by the wedding.. (pictured below):

  I feel like it's all happened so fast. Wasn't it just yesterday that I met Joey? Wasn't it just last week that Joey and I had our very first date? Wasn't it just a moment ago that Joey kept saying crazy things like, "I'm gonna marry you one day, Kati."? I'm going to miss this time of our lives; being engaged for the past two years has been a sweet time, and I know that I'll remember these years fondly, but this girl is ready run down the aisle and scream, "I do"!




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